Fool’s Journey: I Feel Like Being in Love is Not Something I’m Meant Fornov 6 zodiac

Fool’s Journey: I Feel Like Being in Love is Not Something I’m Meant Fornov 6 zodiacThe dilemma:

I’ve been using online dating now for a year and a half now and I’ve not had a lot of success. There were a few girls who I went on dates with, and one I really, really like-liked, but no one has stuck around for more than a few weeks. It’s incredibly frustrating and disappointing, and with the lack of success I’ve had in off-line dating, I feel like being in love is just not something I’m meant for.

I was wondering if the cards could help me? Like, is it worth going on with this or should I set it aside? Is there something about me that I’m not letting out that will attract people to me? Or am I just unlovable?

Hey Ginger. Thank you so much for trusting Autostraddle — and me — with your question.

I’m gonna take a punt before I’ve even shuffled my cards and tell you that no – you’re not unlovable. No way. I think we can all agree, I don’t need a deck of cards to tell you that. You are 100% lovable, just like ALL Autostraddle readers!

That said, let’s pull some cards and see if we can’t work out what’s really going on here. I feel like your situation calls for something really rational like SWOT analysis, so we can step back and get a really clear view of what’s happening within and around you.

If you’re not familiar with SWOT analyses, this is a tool often used in business or activism settings where a group of people are working out where their project is at, and how to move it forward. SWOT stands for strengths, weaknesses, opportunities and threats, and you would normally draw a 2×2 grid, and write lists under each of the four headings. The idea is that strengths and weaknesses are internal to the project, whereas opportunities and threats come from outside.

This really lends itself to tarot! Let’s look at the strengths, weaknesses, opportunities and threats of your dating experience/strategy and how you can work with these to move forwards.

All card images shown throughout this post are from the Kitty Kahane Tarot, copyright Kitty Kahane/AGM Müller

The Reading

Strengths:Four of Pentacles / Three of Pentacles

Wow, Ginger — you bring a lot of really practical skills to a relationship! You’re clearly awesome at setting boundaries, which is actually what enables you to be so generous within your relationships. The Four of Pentacles can come across like a mean sort of a person, but the way I see it, it’s a person who has done their sums and is 100% comfortable with what they’re offering to a potential partner. You’re really clear about this, and that is a true strength — anyone who gets with you can see this and immediately know where they stand. (If only everyone was like you!)

It’s like you really know what you want to give to and get from a relationship — and again that’s not all that common. When you’re with someone, you’re really with them, and you very quickly establish a practical role for yourself within the relationship. You’re not the sort to go rushing in, give everything, say ‘I love you’ after two dates… then three weeks later explode in a firework-display of heartbreak and resentment. Instead, there’s this really gentle seriousness about you which is utterly charming.

Relating this to your question about whether you’re “cut out for love,” the answer is of course you are (if that’s what you want)! My concern looking at these cards is that as time goes on or your sense of disappointment builds, you’ve started to compromise your boundaries or take on roles that just don’t feel like you, in an attempt to get a fit. So let these cards remind you of your strengths, which are real, practical, comforting and brilliant things to bring to any relationship.

Weaknesses:Seven of Pentacles / The Hermit

Whilst having clear boundaries is great, these cards suggest that you have a habit of disappearing into yourself sometimes, rather than communicating with people about what’s really going on. There’s a lot of feeling, and specifically a lot of processing going on beneath the surface as you tend to measure each potential new relationship up against what has gone before.

Both of these cards reflect a tendency to ‘go it alone’ despite the strong partnership stuff that comes through in the first two cards. It’s as though outwardly you’re the strong, pragmatic, giving one, always thinking of your date/partner’s needs… yet inside there’s a whole load more you that they never know about. I would also hazard a guess that you usually decide that you know how things are going to turn out before they have had a chance to fully develop?

Obviously this isn’t saying ‘hand yourself over on a plate’ the first time you hook up with someone. Being reserved/thoughtful/introspective does not make you unlovable, and as your first two cards showed, this practical wisdom is something the right person would find intensely attractive in you.

It’s much more that this tendency to withdraw and analyse is bringing that ‘comparison’ thing to the start of your relationships, where perhaps you could focus more on having fun! The Hermit — a symbol of your own inner knowledge — is a wise old fruit, but here, his studied introspection seems to be weighing things down a tad.

Opportunities:Ace of Swords / Three of Wands

Here’s some practical advice for you, Ginger: turn away from the internet for a period (more on this in a moment) and enroll in a new class or activity! Both of these cards are about setting out on a new venture which will open your mind to new possibilities.

Pick something you’ve always wanted to learn, something you’re passionate about, and that moves you forwards in another area of your life. It doesn’t have to be a formal course like a degree or whatever — the important thing is that it opens your mind and fuels your fire. The world is your oyster, and the Three of Wands is about setting sail to discover new lands! If you’re looking for love, look somewhere different, enjoy the journey itself, and make this whole thing much more about you and your true passions than the general search for love that online dating can (in my vicarious experience) gradually turn into.

I personally find that when I’m doing what I love and developing myself in ways that feel exciting deep inside, I feel more attractive… because I feel more ME. This is about thinking about everything in a really different way, and really getting to know who you are (as opposed to who you want, and how to make sure they want you.)

I’m not telling you that love is lurking in the back row of your women’s studies evening class or you’ll be leaping into the bed of your hot new footstool upholstery tutor (though who knows, right?). This is really about changing your perspective on life, giving you a new focus, and setting yourself off on a new journey, opening new doors and opportunities for potential friend/love relationships further along the way.

Going further, the Three of Wands really does encourage travel in the physical sense too. If you have the resources/lifestyle/wherewithal, you might want to seriously consider studying overseas.

Threats:Eight of Wands / Page of Wands

In the immortal words of Le Tigre, Get off the internet / I’ll meet you in the street. Honestly, I’m all for online dating, social media et al, but it seems like it’s getting to a point now where it’s actually beginning to hurt you.

I’ve come to understand the Eight of Wands in particular as a card that often represents the overwhelm of so many updates, emails, messages, tweets, etc etc etc. Just check out the image below, where a teeny tiny person is dwarfed by all these giant wands (which here represent actual messages!) The big green face looks like the internet, staring upwards, cold and impersonal.

What’s ‘threatening’ you (sorry for the scary SWOT language) is this idea that you have to respond to other people’s ideas, needs, suggestions. It’s not that the internet is inherently bad for you, it’s just having a bad effect on your love life, chipping away at your dating confidence. So each time you go on a new date or connect with someone new, it’s on their terms, not yours.

I drew one final card, asking for a last word of advice to wrap up this reading. And look! It’s Death — the great transformer:

This card is like a big sigh of relief. And it’s so dynamic! It’s the new course, it’s a change of tactic, it’s the letting go of what’s come before. No more measuring, no more overthinking (for now at least). Look at the tiny ship in the background — it’s the same ship held by the figure in the Three of Wands. This is where you set sail, throw off the hang-ups of your experience so far and focus on going and getting what you want in life. It’s such a cliche, I know, but concentrate on fulfilling your own passions, invest in what you love, and let love come naturally.

I feel really excited for you Ginger! I wish you so much luck and joy and love in your travels!

Are you a tarot reader or learner? What do you think of the cards in this reading? If you have a different take on these cards or your own interpretation of this reading, please add your ideas in the comments!

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